Publisher: Poppy (2015)
Hardcover (310 pages)
Reading Challenges: Read 2016
Don’t deceive me. Ever. Especially using my blindness. Especially in public.
Don’t help me unless I ask. Otherwise you're just getting in my way or bothering me.
Don’t be weird. Seriously, other than having my eyes closed all the time, I’m just like you only smarter.
Parker Grant doesn’t need 20/20 vision to see right through you. That’s why she created the Rules: Don’t treat her any differently just because she’s blind, and never take advantage. There will be no second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart.
When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after being gone for years, Parker knows there’s only one way to react—shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind already, like trying out for the track team (that’s right, her eyes don’t work but her legs still do), doling out tough-love advice to her painfully naive classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn’t cried since her dad’s death three months ago. But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened—both with Scott, and her dad—the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem. Maybe, just maybe, some Rules are meant to be broken.
Combining a fiercely engaging voice with true heart, debut author Erid Lindstrom’s Not If I See You First illuminates those blind spots that we all have in life, whether visually impaired or not.
Since I do not typically read a whole lot of contemporary, this would probably not have been a book I would have picked up on my own. However, Not If I See You First came in my Uppercase Box in December, so I read it.
I have never read a book narrated by a blind character before, so that immediately set the book apart. There are not a lot of visual descriptions given unless someone is describing something to Parker. This really makes it very clear that seeing isn’t everything.
Parker has been having a tough time. Her dad died three months ago which meant Parker’s aunt, uncle, and cousins are now living in her house. On top of that adjustment, the boy who broke Parker’s heart is back and she doesn’t know what to do.
Parker is blunt. She calls it like it is and she doesn’t need to see to know what is going on. She can be harsh at times but she hates lies. She is snarky and genuine however she has a hard time accepting some truths that are right in front of her.
Not If I See You First was definitely a really unique book and I really liked it. However, I feel like the ending was rather abrupt. We don’t know exactly how things ended but we can make a guess, at least for Parker. There could easily be a couple more chapters as I definitely wanted more after the last page.